the starting line - best of me
we got older, but we’re still young
we never grew out of this feeling that we won’t give up
i might be ugly and have no friends and shit grades but at least i never went through the botdf phase
Here’s Canada’s reigning royal couple, Avril Lavigne and Chad Kroeger, spreading their beautiful love in Paris while looking like Cool Dad picking up his angsty 8th grade daughter from junior high school to take her to buy the Wheatus CD at f.y.e. because the year is 2001.
if you don’t support fat girls in crop tops and mini skirts then i cannot support you
Hayley Williams + Paramore Box
I PASSED MY DRIVING TEST
Today marks an entire year since Paramore’s Self Titled got released. It was April 9th, 2013 and I walked into a Target in Nashville, Tennessee, saw that it was the last one on the shelf since so many had been bought already, picked the album up, and felt so many different things all at once that it’s hard to even put into words. I’d never been prouder of this band who had been through so much, knowing that there was a time where we all thought that they might not ever play another show, let alone make another album. I felt so happy that this group of people who had meant so much to me for so long were able to get through all of the hard times, coming out better and stronger than ever. I was so glad that all of the hope and support so many people had for them, even when they didn’t have much hope themselves, paid off. In that moment, though, whilst I knew that the album had saved the band, I didn’t know it’d end up doing the same for me.
Once I bought it, I put it on in the car whilst driving around Tennessee with my dad, and I honestly can’t describe how it felt to finally listen to the songs and connect with them the way I did. I could tell that the album was what I’d been waiting for, and what I needed more than anything to get myself out of the shitty place I was in within myself. Every single note, chord and melody was everything I needed to hear and I can honestly say that the album is such a big part of the reason I am who I am today. I feel like it enabled me to understand my own feelings better and helped me to come to terms with exactly who I wanted to be, as well as teaching me a lot about the feelings of other people around me, too. Whether it was rising above anyone that’s ever hurt me, an emotional reflection on bad times, an exercise in self care, a reason to hope, or just an excuse for a dance party, there is a song for everything I’ve ever felt or needed to feel. I’ll never be thankful enough for how this album pulled me out of such a dark time. I remember hearing Last Hope for the first time and just crying because it was everything I felt and wanted to feel and needed to hear and I knew in that moment that “It’s just a spark/But it’s enough to keep me going” would be words that I would be reminding myself of for years to come. All I ever wanted after hearing that was to thank Hayley for those words, and the fact that I got to do that in person is something that I’ll forever be grateful for.
Since this album came out, I’ve had some of the best times of my life, and Paramore have been there the whole time. I realised that no matter what happens in my life, how far away I am from home or how lonely I feel, I’ll always be able to take this album with me, and I’m so glad for that.
So basically in amongst all the emotional ramblings, what I’m trying to say is thank you, Paramore. Thank you for every last song and every bit of hard work and sticking it out the way you all have. Thank you for guiding me through my teenage years, and thank you for changing me for the better. Happy 1st birthday Self Titled!
A feminism comic I did for my uni’s newspaper. I wish I had a bit more time to work on it, but I’m pleased with how it came out considering the tight deadline!